7/2/12. My name is Ayla,I self harm,In 13 days I will have made it a whole month without cutting...or burning(something I didn't do much or enough for scars.cutting was my main SH) I think my boyfriend is a lot of the reason Ive gotten better..he's changed me so fucking much its not even funny I went from cutting every other day or cutting over literally anything that made me upset I used to bottle up my emotions and once I couldn't take it I would fuck up my arms and thigh and hips.I probably have a total of over 100 cuts but only 30 or so are visible but not countable cause their all jumbled up.I still am very uncomfortable about people being able to see my scars,If I wear shorts around certain people I will mess with them a lot to keep my thighs covered and ill wear my wrap bracelets too keep my wrist covered there are a total of three people I'm comfortable not wearing ANY bracelets around and I can wear shorts and not give a fuck those people are Moy Maddi and My Boyfriend Matthew.I don't like it when my family sees because they always get upset..and I hate hate hate being cried over and pitied...Cutting is my release..I do not want to die..I'm no longer suicidal,I will not cut too deep,I am in control I know what I'm doing..there's nothing wrong with how I handle my stress so stop being sad and stop pitying me...Cutting and Smoking both forms of self harm one is just more socially accepted and isn't looked at as hurting yourself when really your killing yourself slowly by smoking and I don't look down or pity my parents when they smoke because its their form of stress relief.So yeah...there's my long ass "about me" If you've made it this far I love you and I legit think you're amazing.

~Aylaa<3
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7/2/12 I didn't make it.I relapsed a few days before my goal date.But I'm starting over.I've lasted a week w/o SH and I'm gonna try a month again..I can do it.I can do it.Dosen't help that I don't have a bestfriend but ill get over it..But on a good note today is me and Matthews TWO month anniversary c: and I couldn't be happier..he just makes me...gah no words to explain...I just...ahh I love him..I don't even know how to explain why..I just..do.
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im just gonna post this here
while we were on the field trip on wednesday this guy just like starts petting the fucking squirrel and the squirrel just fucking took it i dont understand
the squirrel whisperer


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captainradicool:

im just gonna post this here

while we were on the field trip on wednesday this guy just like starts petting the fucking squirrel and the squirrel just fucking took it i dont understand

the squirrel whisperer

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omg im laughing so hard hahaha

omg this is so funny rn im crying
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